d.

When (is all there is).

There is something about being stopped by the slight whisper of
beauty hardly in view.

Physical tension and shortness of breath,

a strained fixation that’s intensity transforms your interior
to glass.

And with but a shifting,

a slight moving of the head,

a full seen whisper weakens to ordinary.

A.

i taught him how to knit. i've never been so proud.

D.

a,

i forgot all about your request until I stood up and saw two runaway tears lying on calgary airport's arm chair. i looked at them and thought about what i was thinking when i cried them. i know you would have cried too if you were the one thinking those things. so as i swung my backpack over my shoulder and walked to the boarding line, i spoke to calgary and told him that those were Anna Funk's tears. and i truly believe they were.

i love you and your retainer voice and your bed hair. 

d. 

a.

it occurs to me that this day is over and will never be lived again, that we are only the sum of days, and when those are spent, we will not come back to this place, to this time, to these people and these colors, and i wonder whether to be sad about this or to be happy, to trust that these hours are meant for some kind of enjoyment, as a kind of blessing.

donald miller, through painted deserts

D.

 I can't see myself ever finishing this book. There is far too much to learn. For now I'll just continue rereading the first three chapters until their truth has been imbedded in my skin: permanent.

"To ask that God's love should be content with us as we are is to ask that God should cease to be God: because He is what He is, His love must, in the nature of things, be impeded and repelled by certain stains in our present character, and because He already loves us He must labour to make us loveable... What we would here and now call our 'happiness' is not the end God chiefly has in view: but when we are such as He can love without impediment, we shall in fact be happy." 

C.S. Lewis, Problem of Pain
 

A.

for the first time, i feel like what i've been given is a gift.

A.

 love is believing in something bigger than yourself. 

a.

i used to believe that with age came knowledge. now, i just believe it's coming to terms with all your inabilities.